The Best Four Years

I feel like you never know what true love is until you look into the eyes of your child for the very first time. The moment takes your breath away and every piece of emotion sweeps over your body. Excitement, love, joy, happiness and fulfillment. A big piece of your heart will always be in their hands. They make you melt with one smile or one laugh. Their carefree ways force you to realize that life shouldn't be taken so seriously and to live a little. Appreciate the small things and don't let the little things bring you down.

Four years ago today Madison looked into my eyes, squeezed my finger and stole my heart forever. She is truly the love of my life. You can be married, you can have a partner or be dating someone but this love is a different kind of love. A love that is unexplainable until you experience it. They say becoming a parent is like having your heart walk outside of you forever. This couldn’t be anymore true.

 

 Madison is truly my best friend. Last week my mother wrote a part of my post describing her relationship with myself. The same goes for Madison and I. She is my little side kick. She is what keeps me going day after day. Her free spirit, willingness to do anything and her loving ways show me that she has a great future ahead. There is nothing in the world that I wouldn’t give her, show her or experience with her. She makes me smile and laugh and appreciate being a mother. I love her with all of my heart plus a million times more.

 

If you are a parent, you know exactly how I feel. Nothing can describe the feelings you have when you look at your child or children. There is nothing better in the entire universe then spending your life raising a child and seeing them grow up before your eyes. I get the lump in my throat and the tear in my eye every time I think about how big she is getting but I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

If you are thinking about having a child or are too scared to take the leap because of the stories you have heard or you don’t think you are ready, take the leap! Just do it! Trust me, you will never ever regret it. No one is ever really ready. You have to jump in with both feet and know that everything will end up just fine. Everything happens for a reason and I believe God has a plan for all of us. Children are the best part of that plan.

Here a few more snapshots and a recap of Madison's 4th birthday party!

 

 

 

The Strawberry Shortcake Princess

 

 Madison's future husband, Cash. He has a MAJOR crush on her. So sweet
 

 My sister is a cake decorator, isn't she talented?!?!?

 

Time to dive in!
 

 My mother made these small delightful treats, yum!
 

 My favorite picture by far
 

 Future model? I think so!

Go out and be a kid!

Live life, enjoy the small things and laugh as much as possible!

You only have one life to live, make the most of it!

It's My Birthday!

I am in a awkward position given the fact that I have to work an 8 hour work day and take my little princess to dance class tonight. What happened to party all day, party all night, this is the life of a, the life of a go getta go getta? Okay excuse my mini break out dance session! (If you have never heard this song, I apologize now for the confusion).

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Anywhooo, I guess getting older isn’t too bad. I mean what’s wrong with more wrinkles, gray hair, memory loss and even more sag to the noticeable areas? Alright, maybe a little too extreme for 28 but hey I’m sure all of this will come with time. God bless my aching heart.

 

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So I figured I would take a different route with the blog and let my mother take over for the day. I mean who else knows me as well as she does, um no one. So without further ado here is my mom and her heartfelt words about me and for me. Grab the box of Kleenex because this one is a tearjerker. Okay at least for me it was :)

 

On this day 28 years ago, my life began. Before, my life had no meaning, no purpose but then I was blessed with a blue eyed, blonde haired little girl. Oh how did my life change. I finally knew what true love was. Little did I know at the time but that little baby would be my savior and my rock and eventually my best friend. I would have never gotten through some difficult times in my life without Brooke. She is what kept me going and gave me a purpose to my life. Over the years, I have watched her go from a baby to a 5 year old going on 28 in 2 point 5 seconds. She was always older than her age, maybe because I treated her more as a friend than a daughter. She was my little side kick. We were always together and I was lucky enough to be a stay at home mom so I was able to volunteer at school to still be with her.  I wouldn't change a single thing about my life after having Brooke. I have 3 other children, Crystal, Daniel and Brian. Brooke wanted to be mom to them. She always wanted to help take care of them. My youngest, Brian was born with complications and Brooke was with me at the hospital the entire 9 days right by my side helping me keep it together. She wouldn't leave the hospital until Brian could come home. She has such a big heart. I don't think she realized at the time how much her being there meant to me. Of course, most 15 year olds wouldn't. She has made me so proud throughout life and continues to do so. She has now made me a grandmother and watching her be a mom is such a blessing. I see her with her daughter and see the friendship they are building with one another. I can only hope they will be as close as we were and are. She has grown up into a young woman that would do anything for anybody. I am so proud of her and so thankful to God for bringing her into my life. She is one of the 4 chambers of my heart and without each one, my heart would not be whole. I love you Brooke with all my heart. Happy Birthday!!!

 

Isn't she the sweetest? I promise I didn't pay her to write this :)

Well I am off to stuff my face with donuts, cupcakes, cake, chocolate, wine and anything else I can get my hands on. What can I say I'm partying, CAUSE IT'S MY BIRTHDAY. Okay not really, I will be a busy little bee and be in bed by 10. Isn't getting old so much fun? I will expect all deliveries to arrive in the mail by the end of the day :)

 

Happy Thursday!